Do I run or am I standing still
What happens around me
A tangle of emotions
Deeply buried & so close
Where are you
Where do you come from
As I ask the question
I know the answer
I feel you
I carry you with me
You are me
I am more
More than my feelings
I looked you in the eye
Couldn't avoid you
Struggled
Fought to be
Where I am now
I dare to be proud
To take up space
Despite everything I know and feel
No answers to so many questions
Why now
Why this feeling
Triggers
Traumas
Pride
Here I stand
Grown-up, tall, and sometimes very small
With everything around me
Discovering that everything is allowed to be
I give myself permission to feel
To feel what once was and sometimes still is
I am allowed to discover and feel
That, no matter what happens,
My true self is always here
Nusa Ina
Rollercoaster